Honesty.Trust.Goals.Success

...Coming as soon as I get my thoughts together. 

It's literally Day2 and I don't know where to start nor finish---I DO KNOW that a post on the words above IS coming though. Ya'll know I always have to vent here and then...It's what makes JF personal :)

Slow Sundays...

Live by this...

          "A wise girl kisses but does not love, listens but does not believe, and leaves before she is left"

 - Marilyn Monroe

(Thanks Denyce :)

Truth is...

"One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else."- Anonymous

Hmm...Guess there was more to Drake's verse on "Invented Sex"

Not sure if this is the name of the song but here it is in it's entirety

"Do It Now"

Random Thoughts...

I think I'm due for a new tat...Looking for 'TRUST' (..in all the wrong places smh *side bar*) a friend of mine has it where I want it, exactly how I want it--- but I might switch it up and do it in arabic alongside mi rib cage. Been digging the inspiring words lately...And "Trust" is so crucial in life, work, and ESPECIALLY relationships...So I think that may be the next move :)

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I was thinking...

"You're only here for fun, no need to pretend..I'm just a good time something you can hold on to at night. We don't have a future so I'm moving on cause I know you...

Ne Yo- Nothing New

"So much going on that you can't think of me... Your heart is on a search, let it come to me..I'll make it all reverse when you come to me... Let me be the reason you get through the day know that I'll make everything okay... Hide in me, I'll be your secret place"

Brandy- Let Me Be

"For you I make sure I clear my schedule, this weekend was fully devoted to you. You said you were coming through real soon, that was now a couple hours ago..."

Nina Sky- Beautiful People

"If I could forget em...I would please believe me and I know that I should throw the towel in but it's not that easy. You treat me better then him and if I was sane there'd be no competition..."

Jazmine Sullivan- In Love With Another Man

"Let the world rage outside...Cause when I'm here with you, the world stops for me."

Maxwell- Stop The World

I'm so NOT balanced lol :-/

Ketch Up like Heinz lol

"You come out from nowhere, disappear & reappear..Houdini would be very proud"

Maxwell- Love You

Catching up on the new ish this week...

Ne Yo- In The Ground

Ciara- Cool On You

Chris Brown- Shine For Me

Chris Brown and Rich Girl- Smile &  Wave

Beyonce- Sweet Dreams

*Fuckery* and I think Beyonce is great but this right here...NO, absolutely NOT. She looks crazy especially at 2:48 ...Good boobage at 3:36 though lol

Mario f/ Gucci Mane & Sean Garret- Break Up

Maino f/ Swizz Beats- Million Bucks

Trey Songz on 106th & Park

"I Need A Girl"

"Can't Help But Wait"

LMAO Fwd to 1:56 ...Thanks to Whitney, for this def made my night!

Songs About Me...

Sometimes I go into 'girl' mode. Forgive me.

Maroon 5- Shiver

You build me up

You knock me down

Provoke a smile

And make me frown

You are the queen of runaround

You know it's true 

You chew me up

And spit me out

Enjoy the taste

I leave in your mouth

You look at me

I look at you

Neither of us know what to do

There may not

Be another way to your heart

So I guess I'd better find a new way in

I shiver when I hear your name

Think about you but it's not the same

I won't be satisfied 'till I'm under your skin

Immobilized by the thought of you

Paralyzed by the sight of you

Hypnotized by the words you say

Not true but I believe anyway

So come to bed It's getting late

There's no more time for us to waste

Remember how my body tastes

You feel your heart begin to race

Weather's dope as ish outside and I'm at home sick under the covers...Someone tell me what's wrong with this picture? No clue, but I do know this Swine Flu is ridic and NO, that's not what I have LOL

Anywho had a good convo convo with the homie AshMo today regarding our stats with guys and why good young woman like us are still single LOL and in REAL REAL life I'm good with being single because I'm not sure if I'm ready to be cuffed and all that but for example times like these when I'm sick it'd be good to go home and hop on the phone and just whine to someone ya know? Is that so much to ask for geeez.

"When I was younger like even had great advice on relationships for people older than me and people were proud like ashley is so focused and not boy crazy thats so great shes gon go far and my friends were like i wish i could not stress about dudes like you dont- THAT WAS ALL GOOD UP UNTIL this last year - like @ 22 I'm like Ive accomplished a lot I've focused on me I'm not ready for a fam and a house but damn I could use a good man in my life to support me...shit"

Like can we go here one day with "Pretty Wings" (shameless plug cuz I love this man lol) playing in the background? Sheesh

Thank You BET!!! This video is the definition of beautiful

The weight of the things remain unspoken

Built up so much it crushed me everyday....

"Won't Go Home Without You" Maroon5

Cherry Cherry Boom Boom

For some reason this song has been on my brain all day...

Boy, we've had a real' good time

And I wish you the best on your way

Never thought we'd fall out of place

Not that I don't care about you

Just that things got so compilquee

Lady Gaga- Eh Eh(Nothing Else I Can Say)

I twittered this today but I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to start considering peoples reaction before I speak, because lately it's been getting me in trouble...not in a bad way per say, but I feel like I've put myself out there in many situations and I havent received anything positive out of it. Not saying that it's negative neither BUT very in the middle which leads me to think that I need to just not speak on things moving forward. So with that said hasta manana people and thanks for reading xo

Ms. Yeah*

SMH at the Chrihanna case/arraingemnet being pushed to April 6th and CB being charged with 2 felony counts, I know he's shittin bricks right now. As the news develops the shock is growing all over again. Like, I can't even comment on it cause it's still like for real Chris? Like I look at him and just want him to start crunkin like wtf? I dono dudes, and then they're back together already??????!!!!!! Geezus Christmas I can't deal...I lost so much respect for them, sucks...used to be my boos. I started reading this book today by Steve Harvey called "Act Like A Lady, Think Like A Man" LOL it's the #1 best seller and he was on Oprah! Anywho, this paragraph stuck out to me for my own reasons but yeah it just made me think...

"Many of you figure if a man truly loves you, the two of you should be able to pursue your dreams together. Stability is important to you, but you'd rather build the foundation of your relationship together, no matter the man's station in life. This is honorable, but really, it's not the way men work. His eye will be on the prize, and that prize may not neccesarily be you if he isn't where he wants to be in life...The way you help him get there is to help him focus on his dream, see the vision, and implement his plan"

:-/

So! This guy The Dream's album isssss sooo ridiculously ridiculous lol I can't take it, this man is so consistent with the song transitions like that's probably my favorite part of his albums but on some G shit...Take U Home 2 My Mama, Love vs Money, Fancy**, & Mr. Yeah are my FAVESSSS! Everything else I pretty much heard already( and are just as good) but those righttt there sheeeeiiit. Dude always goes IN hasnt failed yet, kind of refreshing in a way :)
"That girl is fancy...Go girl...She's only 22* and ahead of her time...Made her way from nothing, can't fault her for wanting something..."

Finally got a chance to hear the Lily Allen album and I must say I LOVE this song :) Back To The Start
PS- Lily is def lookin like a honey lately lol

My Life Your Entertainment

"So we don't confirm the fling
Keep avoiding all the questions
You can teach me many things
I'm just scared to learn a lesson"
Drakes cover of Little Bit

That line(s) pretty much sums up my day today.

I really must say that I HATE when I go days and days without writing in my blog...Like yea I post alot of nothing sometimes but like it's really refreshing to write, weather it's posting a new song or video like it helps my day go faster, on some real ness...and it doesnt matter if I only have 40 followers or if I only have a couple hits someones reading and at the end of the day that's super duper dope to me.

The last week has been kind of hectic hence the reason the last post was Kanye's new video that I'm still madly in love with and can't wait to watch that on the clouds lol. Anyways, when I say I've been 100% out of the loop for the past week I kid you not...Like I heard Chrihanna was back together, can someone explain that to me? In the back of my head I kind of knew they would but whatever she looks hella dumb in my eyes smh.

Let's see what else on the music tip I've listened to Omarion's new song "Comfort" f/ Lil Wayne a million and one times since I heard it Wednesday I believe. The execution F I R E. Sheeit, I was convinced homie fell off. SMH at me fiending for me as a teen lol

Was at BET's after party for Rip THe Runway last Saturday and fell in love with GoGo music lol especiall this right here UCB- Sexy Lady (Everyone knows I'm a suckerrr for live bands straight LIVE lol)


Oh and lastly but definitely not least :) I'm part of another movement by the name of ARRT Ent. and we threw our first after work event called "Tastemaker Tuesdays" which turned out so succesful, super happy about that and can't wait till the next one. Thanks to everyone who came out and supported! This month it's going down even crazier as BET's very own Stephen Hill will be hosting. Hit me up for more info. if you want to slide through on March 31st!

Terrence J & Stephen Hill

Maino

BrandyRest of the pix up on ARRT ENT. on facebook! Add us :)

Last night, I went out…something light..2 dinners, attempted to also hit up Mansion but turned around and went home….I woke up this morning and my THROAT was mad TIGHT(pause) couldnt swallow and it just got worst as the day went by I got a fever my freakin back is killing me and I have a KILLER headache…Looks like this is going to be a lazy weekend, so under the weather :(

So I'm in my dept. mtg today and Jamiroquai's "Virtual Insanity" came on and I got so excited LOL cause this was literally one of my favorite videos as a kid…Like him singing around in this white room with moving floors and his crazy hat was probably the DOPEST thing to me.

Random but I can't take how good Kevin Phillips looks in the "Never Ever" video...I've been crushing since "Pride" SMH Is Nia Long still dating him??

2 DouBle Oh (12345678) 9!

Not to sound all cliche and shit but it really feels like I was just writing my last '07 into '08 blog a couple days ago... This year really went by quick, dono if it was all the trips or just me being consumed with work but like any other time that passes, I've learned: a) that people can be your friend one day and the second you turn ya head they're talking bull b) Almost every dude I fucked with this year is CRAZY & DERANGED! Ya'll need jesus jerome lol. I've loved: he came into my life unexpectedly and left the same way, but he left a mark...because even though he may not have been "the one" it was a sign of how I should feel in a real relationship, still got MAD love for him regardless. I've lost: ...again, and this time just as hard as I did with my mom's... RIP Abuela- Never thought the day would come when she'd leave but she did, and it hit me exactly how i thought it would....that day my world crashed and it's been hard since. I've linked: (WTF?-Sorry I needed another 'L' word lol) With incredible people who inspire me to do more then just what is in front of me. ..

2 thousand Grind
2 thousand Shine
(We bout to go in somethin crazzzzzzy---you already know how I do! SB I go hard, I go hard :) )

But yeah, that's what it's about and on some realness all I ask for in this coming year is health and prosperity (lol dollllazzz)

"Your sanity is worth much more" - Curta!n$ aka my nigga fo lifeee
(Not sure if thats the exact wording but thats going in my '09 book of quotes)

Hope the best for everyone out there who reads my little blog and thanks for taking the time to read.

Signin off for the '08
SB*

December 26th, 2008-- I should be in DR right now with my italian xmas/new years fling (LOL Rapss '07 memories) preparing for my cousins wedding tmw...instead I'm stuck in queens watching "Cadillac Records" which by the way wasnt as bad as I thought it was, Bey did a really good job playing Etta James thats for sure and Columbus Short's swag in the beginning of the movie = Fuego! lol minus the silver tooth but yea... "I'd rather be blind" Thankkkkksssss, I think I'm hooked...I've officially found a new love for Etta's music, true facts.



And Bey's version cause in my opinion, she bodied this song.

It's crazy how one little thing can prompt you to see a whole new you...Last wk my intern sent me a link to Steve-O's page (I never called him that btw) and put me on to his "words from..." posts that he's been doing lately and I read some and thought to myself "wow, this right here is pretty dope" then the homie Raps bought it to my attn. today for very funny reasons might I add, cause SB would never ask for a celebrity relationship/lifestyle in REAL LIFE, that right there is VERY CRAZY to me...Being in this industry I may run across it and if I do so be it but I'd never ASK for it....Anyways, let me carry on...I started to read more posts and it made me realize a lot of things...#1 being that I need to put in more, in life period. I look at my blog and look at blogs like Steve's and Rap's and they put in 100% into their work, meanwhile I I give it 50%...and as I was talking to one of the realest dudes I know and have mad love for--Curtains, I related that to my life because it's what I've been doing lately....I give this half ass performance and that shit doesn't get you anywhere, like I'm 22yrs old and make sure I'm sleep by 10p cause I need 8hours of sleep to function the next day--Like who does that?????? Sleep when you old!! I know I can do/ put out so much more and I haven't...Why? I have no clue but I def need some type of motivation cause I've been on E lately and its been hard, real talk...my past situation still has me FUCKED up even though I know he was put in my life for a reason that reason being to make me aware of what and how I should feel in a relationship, the loss of my grams has me messed up, what my future holds in general has me fucked up, and the fact that I can't buy my black LOUIE has me messed up!!(Kidding! No but for real...--Last wk I was 2 minutes from losing it and if it wasn't for some words from Curt I prolly wouldve lost it, true stills lol (as Lace would say). Anyways, I'm not gonna sit here and ramble just thought I'd share how I've been feeling lately...I'll be cool though, everyone goes thru their ups and downs...just gotta bounce back and do you.

Lessons In Love

I think my karma right now is really FUCKED up… Like, I don't know what I've done to the good "relationship" gods above but NEVER EVER do things go my way when it comes to this part of my life lol--I can laugh at this moment but lord knows I'm crushed in real life :(
But I guess at the same time I think this has taught me a lesson…a)Dudes w/ GF's are a BIG no, no, b)Don't let your guard down too quick EVEN if the other person does the same, and lastly but not least the biggest lesson taught here was that whoever steps into my life next I def know that I want the way about ol' dude. Cause on some G shit I don't think I've felt this way EVER--like I put myself on the line MADDD times for dude, so at the end of the day I thank him for making me realize that I guess cause like i've said a million times before he is a really good person….Lame but it's the truth, and please don't ask me who I'm talking bout…If you're in my immediate circle you'll know but if not don't ask no questionssss! I just needed to vent a little so yea this was my way of doing that.
As for now im shutting down on the guy category, untill the next time.

Soooooooooo on the brighter sides of things-- Lloyd drops todayyyy, woooooooooooooooooooooo!!! check his AOL Sessions---Where did this go for urban artist?? Heard the budgets be kinda low but! I def used to be a fan lol

Oh yeah, I forgot to post the commercial that will support my family a couple years from now lol the other day but here it goes for those who fast forward thru commercials :) FYI-- That story about some random having his child is so NOT BELIEVABLE!

B B D!?

So Raps and I had a rather interesting conversation the other day about me and my current guy situation (fyi* there is no REAL situation that I'm dealing with, just fun that I like to have from time to time cause I get kinda bored and need excitement) and this is how it went down

Zilla (10:30:24 AM): i have a theory
SB (10:30:38 AM): LOL ok tell me your theory when you return
Zilla (10:41:58 AM): i think you have a BBD issue
SB (10:42:06 AM): bbd???
Zilla (10:42:13 AM): bigger better deal
Zilla (10:42:28 AM): for instance
Zilla (10:42:30 AM): u like homeboy#1
Zilla (10:42:41 AM): but you wouldnt make it serious bc what if ex homeboy came around
SBrAdiOHeaD (10:42:54 AM): lolll
Zilla (10:42:58 AM): and even ex homeboy, you wouldnt make it serious bc what if future homeboy came around
SBrAdiOHeaD (10:43:02 AM): lmao
Zilla (10:43:07 AM): tell me im wrong
Zilla (10:43:41 AM): this weekends crush excited me bc i thought maybe he was the BBD
Zilla (10:44:45 AM): and ps, thats why homeboy#1 hates you
Zilla (10:44:55 AM): you make him feel like the C-D lister that he is
Zilla (10:45:19 AM): all he wants is someone to think hes an A lsiter
Zilla (10:45:20 AM): u know

Key
*names purposely disguised due to BEASTING ass ppl :)
Homeboy#1- Current Guy, who will never pass GO lol
Ex Homeboy- Has a GF and disappeared on me
Future Homeboy- Love him, speak about him awwwwwl the time
This weekends crush- Ballllllllllllllllin'!

Free Willy

...Because today, I feel like a whale and Im going to dedicate this song down yonder to myself.
Juelz Santana- Drop A Couple Pounds

On a slimmer note, TRL premiered Danity Kane's new video "Damaged"

....like it? love it? hate it?

I heart the choreography and ya'll already know I love this song, so as far as their vocals---very good.

"Welcome To The Dollhouse" is up on MTV's The Leak

As for the album, egh it's okay I guess? I reallllly like "Secret Place" but the fact that it's not even close to 2minutes long really blows mind. "Is Anybody Listening" is pretty, "Ecstasy" is cool, "Poetry" is amazzinng, I love/like/love "Sucka For Love" <--cause I kinda tend to be one lol, Aubrey's vocals SUCK on this one though, sorry.

Flo Rida's "Mail On Sunday" is also up on The Leak

LOL I'm not going to be bias because I got a Thank You in the album artwork(Lace we're Famous!! lmao) but I will say that this album is not as bad as some of you may think. The majority of the album is on point and he has a lot of features including Timbaland, Lil Wayne, Trey Songz, Will.I.Am and a couple other people, so def give it a listen.

Gotta put ya on to

Lil Wayne letting females lick the wrapper all over town lol
L O V E L Y

Lil Wayne f/ Static Major- Lollipop

So Spitzer schwizzes off with prostitutes aye? Ya'll know I do not go into Politics but this is kind of funnnnny, tsk tsk.

Thank you for your lullaby Mr. Radio

Chrisette Michele has been in constant rotation ALL dayBeautiful album...makes you want to be in love, makes you want to cry, makes you want to smile, makes you want to move on, makes you want to hold on, makes you realize...

Best Of Me

I saw you again at the parlor, Crossing the walk with your lady,

I caught your eye from a far off, I noticed she wore a ring, mmmm,

I found a smile against my will wish it was genuine.

I put away my desire No more in love with you still, Look I'm moving on.

Loved you, Lost you Thought I'd give you all the best of me,

We departed, broken hearted, I need to be free

What we had was oh so lovely I'll swallow my pain,

It's my time to find the best of me

Can't be the type to be begging Can't be the type to plead,

My mama made me much wiser, What's mine will be just for me,

yeah I'm trying hard to just focus, I'm trying hard to sleep,

Promise I'm glad you're happy When it's my time it will be.

Look I'm moving on.

Slooooww

Slow Sundays, what would I do without them...seriously.

I went to the Salon and drowned myself in a tub of ice cream, did the same thing yesterday afternoon...clearly something's wrong because girls only drown themselves in ice cream when they're upset about something...take a guess.

"Think like a nigga, so you want get hurt like a bitch"

Could'na said it better mel xoxo

I'm good $$$ mang.

"She coming with me, She coming with me"
Love thiss songgg and the ending to this video is too cute!

Sisqo..."Champaigne and Hennessy"

uhm really?

someone wake me up.....now!

I know I said I was all T-pain'ed out the other day notbut I'm really feeling this song and it's too hard not to post, sorry people.